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26th Annual glad Media Awards

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The Body




Meth and Recovery

December 20th, 2013

The My Fabulous Disease Holiday Spectacular!


What says Holiday Spirit more than Mom’s cookies, Santa, and candid interviews about loving a family member with HIV?

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October 30th, 2013

Surviving Two Epidemics: AIDS and Meth

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Maintaining a functional existence slipped away, just slowly enough not to alarm me, as if the drugs were quietly sneaking out the door with my life.

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September 24th, 2013

The Most Important Gay Porn Film Ever Made?


The film is either a transgressive act of eroticism, or an act that demonstrates how to become infected with HIV. Or perhaps both.

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September 3rd, 2013

The Real Poz Guys of Atlanta III

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These guys must be getting the hang of this, because we discussed and revealed things like never before. From crystal meth addiction to our mothers, nothing was off limits.

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August 7th, 2013

Dealing with Shame can be a Drag

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I would hear other gay men make disparaging remarks about drag and I withered, unable to admit I was playing to a packed room every Sunday.

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March 24th, 2013

Behind the Scenes of the Video Series “A Day in the Life”

Robert Still

I was knocked out by these people and their daily courage and fortitude. I really want to thank this group for taking me into their homes and lives and allowing me to share their stories with you.

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January 2nd, 2013

The Private War That Killed Spencer Cox

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When legendary AIDS treatment activist Spencer Cox died on December 18, 2012, the cause of death was AIDS-related complications, which is understandable if post-traumatic stress, despair, and drug addiction are complications related to AIDS.

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December 13th, 2012

The Night Don Lemon Hugged Me


Don Lemon, who remembered our first visit and never mentioned the circumstances, who knew this interview meant growth for me, a sort of redemption perhaps, and who even knew a little about overcoming shame himself, reached out in a simple gesture of support.

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October 22nd, 2012

The Truth is Bad Enough: What Became of the Happy Hustler?

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Kearns’ story includes a bizarre intersection between us that I found so revelatory and disturbing that I had to actually put the book down for several days while I reexamined an entire section of my life.

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September 28th, 2012

My Muscles, My Disease: A Snapshot of Drug Addiction


Getting back in shape is an easy call. Except my mind puts physical fitness on the same crazy train as my drug addiction.

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