web analytics
rss feed


26th Annual glad Media Awards

Let's Stop HIV Together Vertical Web Banner of Jamar and His Mother. www.cdc.gov/actagainstaids

The Body




Meth and Recovery

August 7th, 2013

Dealing with Shame can be a Drag

Anita Smoking small

I would hear other gay men make disparaging remarks about drag and I withered, unable to admit I was playing to a packed room every Sunday.

Read More

March 24th, 2013

Behind the Scenes of the Video Series “A Day in the Life”

Robert Still

I was knocked out by these people and their daily courage and fortitude. I really want to thank this group for taking me into their homes and lives and allowing me to share their stories with you.

Read More

January 2nd, 2013

The Private War That Killed Spencer Cox

Spencer Stairs crop

When legendary AIDS treatment activist Spencer Cox died on December 18, 2012, the cause of death was AIDS-related complications, which is understandable if post-traumatic stress, despair, and drug addiction are complications related to AIDS.

Read More

December 13th, 2012

The Night Don Lemon Hugged Me


Don Lemon, who remembered our first visit and never mentioned the circumstances, who knew this interview meant growth for me, a sort of redemption perhaps, and who even knew a little about overcoming shame himself, reached out in a simple gesture of support.

Read More

October 22nd, 2012

The Truth is Bad Enough: What Became of the Happy Hustler?

Michael Kearns book

Kearns’ story includes a bizarre intersection between us that I found so revelatory and disturbing that I had to actually put the book down for several days while I reexamined an entire section of my life.

Read More

September 28th, 2012

My Muscles, My Disease: A Snapshot of Drug Addiction


Getting back in shape is an easy call. Except my mind puts physical fitness on the same crazy train as my drug addiction.

Read More

July 31st, 2012

AIDS2012: The ‘My Fabulous Disease’ Video Collection


All of the six video blogs produced by “My Fabulous Disease” during AIDS2012 (the international AIDS conference) in Washington, DC, July 21-27, 2012.

Read More

June 8th, 2012

The Crystal Meth Connection of the Gay Porn Killer

Luke Magnotta

“… the sheer madness of the crimes, and the killer’s insane determination to make it as shocking as possible, was sickeningly familiar to a recovering methamphetamine addict like me.”

Read More

March 15th, 2012

Dealing with Shame can be a Drag

Anita Smoking small

“We’re born naked… and the rest is drag.” — RuPaulWhen I was nine years old, I took my parents’ album of the Broadway musical “Damn Yankees” and memorized every syllable of Gwen Verdon’s show stopper, […]

Read More

February 23rd, 2012

Grave Hep C News… and oh yeah, the Oscars!

The image in my mind has never left me, even after many years of trying, of applying layers of wallpaper to that corner of my mind. I am in someone’s bedroom — it could have […]

Read More