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November 8th, 2012

On Being Among Instinct Magazine’s “Leading Men of 2012″

Recently I got a pop-up message on Facebook from a name I didn’t recognize. “Hi Mark,” it said. “We went to high school together in Bossier City, Louisiana, and I remember you very distinctly.”

“Uh oh,” I replied. Statements like that always make me nervous. Whatever popularity I had in high school evaporated when I revealed in my senior year that I had a boyfriend. Only my defiantly gay posturing kept the bullies at bay; they didn’t know what the hell to do with me.

“It was apparent you were gay,” the messenger went on, instantly winning Facebook’s Biggest Understatement of 2012, “and that helped me deal with my own sexuality. So I wanted to thank you. You helped me and you didn’t even know it.”

I melted. More than thirty years later, someone I couldn’t pick out of a lineup thanked me for making his life’s journey a little easier. Because I chose to reveal, without shame, a basic fact about myself.

There are rewards for revealing our truths, my friends. They come in the form of instant messages decades after the fact, or can be seen in the face of someone to whom you have just revealed something intimate and real about yourself.

And sometimes, as ridiculous as it feels for me to mention, Instinct Magazine names you as one of their “Leading Men of 2012.” The acknowledgement has floored me, and did something else that’s rare for a self-obsessed, anxiety-ridden man such as myself: it humbled me. Because this recognition is really about all of us who are living with HIV and doing it openly.

There are examples of us everywhere. People like Nick Rhoades and Robert Suttle, who recently testified before the Presidential AIDS Advisory Council and shared their stories of being sent to jail for not disclosing their HIV status (check out the links of their moving testimony). They exhibit a courage that I doubt I could muster. Robert Breining has devoted his time and modest livelihood to creating and maintaining POZIAM, an online poz community. And then there are scores of people with HIV, perhaps like you, that speak out in their communities, write blogs, give interviews, and otherwise speak their truth in ways that affect more people than they can ever know.

If you have the privilege and ability to share your story of life with HIV – or as a gay or lesbian person, or as someone living with disability or hardship – I urge you to do it. The rewards may not be immediate but are nevertheless held in life’s cache.

Until the day, when you least expect it, that an instant message on Facebook appears.

Mark

ALSO…

If you are living with HIV and in recovery from drug or alcohol addiction, I’d like to plug an amazing weekend retreat, Pozitively Fabulous, coming this Spring from April 4-7, 2013 (don’t be fooled by the dates; it’s closer than you realize and they are already nearing capacity) at Cloudland Canyon, a gorgeous retreat center in the majestic Blue Ridge mountains. The retreat is designed for anyone who is HIV+ and dealing with recovery, and is 12-step based. I know and deeply respect the dedicated people organizing this event and plan to be there myself. Check it out!

10 Responses to “On Being Among Instinct Magazine’s “Leading Men of 2012″”

  1. Bobby Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 3:36 pm

    Congrats, Mark! Well deserved! Keep up your positive work!

  2. Renee McCoy Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 3:54 pm

    Hey Mark;

    Congratulations!! I met you at AIDS 2012. I am proud to know you. It is so important that we stand tall as we are, with all of our many bits showing. You are fabulous and I am made better and stronger because I know you!!

  3. Lander Osteen Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 4:24 pm

    Congratulations. I realized that you would be one of my “Leading Men” (not just for2012) for years to come after that night at the Shreveport Little Theater. I feel honored to be able to call you friend.

  4. Michael Mitchell Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 7:01 pm

    Congratulations, Mark. Keep up the good work and remain grounded in your work. You have helped and will continue to be an inspiration to many, including me.

  5. NE Rich Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 8:43 pm

    Very happy for you Mark, you deserve it !!!!

  6. PositiveLite.com Says:

    November 8th, 2012 at 9:10 pm

    Does “leading” mean you are a top or a bottom? (Keep ‘em guessing, Mark!) Seriously though, congratulations from all of your admirers here at PositiveLite.com

  7. Mommie Dammit Says:

    November 9th, 2012 at 11:02 pm

    Congratulations Mark, I’m very happy for you! Let the recognition be fuel for you to continue your work. Love ya bunches!
    – M.D.

  8. Paul Pentifallo Says:

    November 11th, 2012 at 2:25 am

    You make me proud to be openly gay, poz, and a million other labels. I shared this on my wall…and came out (Yes, I love stilettos!) again on my wall which I am wont to do from time to time. What you did for a young man thirty years ago came back to you as a reminder of how truly blessd we are. Mention me in your acceptance speech…or else! XXX

  9. DelRosa Winston Says:

    November 12th, 2012 at 3:13 pm

    Congratulations!

    I follow you online quite a bit, Thank you for being genuine, please stay that way!

    In case you don’t remember me, I met you at the ADAP conference in Florida in January 2011. I am from Georga – YOU are an inspiration to me.

    Peace,

    Del’Rosa

  10. Rebecca Says:

    November 28th, 2012 at 12:12 pm

    Tonya, with a little prsnisteece it’s (usually) not too difficult to find the international versions of SYTYCD on the Internet. Canada’s Season 3 is easy look on idolforums.com, someone there posted all the episodes. There is also a handy link on sytycdism.com.Happy viewing! It was a fun season. And I love your site, by the way.

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